College

So I'm thinking about college, thinking about where I'll end up, worrying. Not only is the whole application process the most drawn-out stressor I've ever dealt with, but in the end, what's it all for? I'm so afraid that I'll go, and it'll be the same as high school. The same kids, the same failures and insecurities. I'm going all the way across the country to get to everything I tried so hard to leave behind... I guess I am the most afraid for who I'll be. I want to get away from everything that I am in Colorado, which is why I'm going east. The east is the closest I've been to who I want to be, and the last thing I want to discover is that I can be the same awful mess there, in my magical place.