Quote of the Day: April 30th, 2005

When we emerged, wiped out by that play
Nine o'clock, stars and moon lit the way
I thought,
"Hey, what a way to spend a day,
Hey, what a way to spend a day."

-Tick, Tick... BOOM!

Tonight is my last performance with Boulder High Theatre.
...
...Let that sink in.

Quote of the Day: April 29th, 2005

"I wish I could pause this moment forever..."

-Further Seems Forever

Yesterday before the show, on the paint cabinet, I almost started crying, knowing that this is it, guys. In a few days, this'll all be gone. I have to move on, leave this place, the place where I found myself, not to get sappy and trite, leave my family, my only friends, my home.

Quote of the Day: April 27th, 2005

BOY: I saw her today.
GIRL: I saw him today.

BOY: It seems like its been forever.
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares.

BOY: She looks better than before.
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him.

BOY: I asked her how things were going.
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend.

BOY: I couldn't look at her without starting to cry.
GIRL: He couldn't even look at me.

BOY: I told her I miss her.
GIRL: He doesn't mean it.

BOY: I meant it.
GIRL: He didn't mean it.

BOY: I love her.
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend.

BOY: I held her for the last time.
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug.

BOY: Then I went home and cried.
GIRL: Then I went home and cried.

BOY: I lost her.
GIRL: I still love him.


Boy, I wish I couldn't relate.

Shroud

...For lack of a better title. He looks like he's being buried in the flowers.

Quote of the Day: April 24th, 2005

I'm kinda pretty,
And pretty damn smart.
I like romantic things
Like music and art.
And as you knowI have a gigantic heart!
So why don't I have
A boyfriend?

-Avenue Q

Movies

Change the color of the ones you've seen, then add some new ones to the bottom.
Green means I've seen it.


01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie (Spiceworld)
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legends
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. The Crow
48. The Princess and the Warrior
49. Seabiscuit
50. Hard Core Logo
51. Phantom of the Paradise
52. Zardoz
53. Lost in Translation
54. American Beauty
55. Big Fish
56. Starship Troopers
57. Starship Troopers 2
58. The Lost Boys
59. All About Eve
60. Showgirls
61. Swept Away
62. Star Wars: A New Hope
63. Black Hawk Down
64. Elizabeth
65. The Shawshank Redemption
66. Four Weddings and a Funeral
67. The Sound of Music
68. Notting Hill
69. Scotland, pa
70. Oxygen
71. The Ring
72. Shrunken Heads
73. Legend
74. About a Boy
75. Lilo and Stitch
76. Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
77. Pitch Black
78. Maid in Manhattan
79. Willow
80. The Usual Suspects
81. Naked Tango
82. Labyrinth
83. Fight Club
84. The Dark Crystal
85. The Nightmare Before Christmas
86. Idle Hands
87. From Hell
88. Meet Joe Black
89. The Breakfast Club
90. FAME
91. Moon Child
92. Zatoichi
93. Ichi the Killer
94. Gohatto
95. Velvet Goldmine
96. Bend It Like Beckham
97. Far and Away
98: Raiders of the Lost Ark
99: X-Men
100: Lethal Weapon
101: Pi
102: The Chosen
103: Amadeus
104. Gummo
105. Sliding Doors
106. Gone With The Wind
107. Wizard of Oz
108. Back to the Future
109. Haggard
110. Empire Records
111. Zoolander
112. The Bird Cage
113. Girl Interrupted
114. Better Off Dead
115. Euro Trip
116. Good Will Hunting
117. Never Been Kissed
118. Drive Me Crazy
119. Sixteen Candles
120. Pretty in Pink
121. Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
122. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
123. 10 Things I Hate About You
124. Bridget Jones' Diary
125. Top Gun
126. Ferris Bueller's Day Off
127. Vanilla Sky
128. Ocean's Eleven (Original or Remake)
129. The Boondock Saints
130. Ed Wood
131. Batman
132. Newsies
133. Moulin Rouge
134. "O"
135. Troop Beverly Hills
136. The Matrix
137. West Side Story
139. The Land Before Time (original)
140. American History X
141. Amelie
142. Vulgar the clown
143. You've Got Mail
144. Almost Famous
145. The Notebook
146. Terminator 2
147. Sister Act 2
148. Princess Mononoke
149. My Neighbor Totoro
150. Monty Python's Meaning of Life
151. Laputa: Castle in the Sky
152. Mulholland drive
153. Donnie Brasco
154. True Romance
155. Once Upon a Time in America
156. Stand By Me
157. Fried Green Tomatoes
158. Beauty and the Beast
159. Ever After
160. Father of the Bride
161. Memento
162. Adaptation
163. Run Lola Run
164. Rainman
165. Steel Magnolias
166. Casper
167. Josie and the Pussycats
168. Say Anything
169. Mad Love
170. L.A. Confidential
171. Citizen Kane
172. Psycho (1960)
173. Bring It On Again
174. Honey
175. Blow
176. A Walk To Remember
177. CAMP
178. How To Deal
179. Radioflyer
180. Nothing But Trouble
181. Igby Goes Down
182. Garden State
183. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
184. Heathers
185. A Beautiful Mind
186. Thelma and Louise
187. Clueless
188. The Royal Tenenbaums
189. Less Than Zero
190. The Rules of Attraction
191. Blue Collar Comedy Tour
192. Wimbledon
193. Children Of Dune
194. Apocalypse Now
195. Kramer vs. Kramer
196. Runaway Jury
197. Much Ado About Nothing
198. Sideways
199. Chocolat
200. Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
201. The 5000 Fingers of Dr. T
202. Tapeheads
203. Patton
204. The Rocky Horror Picture Show
205. The Blues Brothers
206. Henry V
207. Hudson Hawk
208. Undercover Blues
209. Gone in 60 Seconds
210. Emperor's New Groove
211. Full Metal Jacket
212. Dead Poets Society
213. What Dreams May Come
214. SLC Punk
215. 200 Cigarettes
216. Catch Me if You Can
217. The Spongebob Squarepants Movie
218. Life Is Beautiful
219. Hedwig and the Angry Inch
220. Psycho Beach Party
221. Gigli
222. Mean Girls
223. Gothika
224. Welcome To The Dollhouse
225. Ghost World
226. Party Monster
227. Pingu
228. ...and God Spoke
229. The Who's Tommy
230. Singin' in the Rain
231. Monsoon Wedding
232. Romeo + Juliet
233. Pulp Fiction
234. Raising Arizona
235. The Naked Gun
236. Rollerball
237. Loser
238. The Godson
239. The Truman Show
240. This is Spinal Tap
241. Hook
242. Bubba Ho-Tep
243. The Last Unicorn
244. Freaks
245. Wilde
246. As Good As It Gets
247. Vanity Fair
248. Millions
249. Andrew Lloyd Webber's Phantom of the Opera

Quote of the Day: April 21st, 2005

"And rain will make the flowers grow..."

-Les Miserables

The Rain

It's raining today. I really wish it wasn't. I keep thinking of him, in the ground, wrapped in a towel and a blanket, probably soaking wet and alone and dead.

It still hurts.

I hate to think of the water on him. I hate to think of him gone, forever, disolving into dirt.

Mmmm.

I told myself that the point of doing quotes of the day was so that I could relate them to what went on during my day. That hasn't been happening recently, but all my quotes feel right to me when I pick them. Even if they don't directly relate to anything. But I'll try harder to relate them, ok?

Quote of the Day: April 19th, 2005

"Be patient, for the world is broad and wide."

-Shakespeare

(we pseudo-open tomorrow. i fell in infatuation today, again. it was nice.)

Quote of the Day: April 18th, 2005

"The hardest thing in this world is to live in it."

-Buffy



(I don't know what to do.)

Quote of the Day: April 16th, 2005

And if you've got no other choice,
You know you can follow my voice
Through the dark turns and noise of this
Wicked little town...


-Hedwig and the Angry Inch

Quote of the Day: April 15th, 2005

"You see, I have an overwhelming need to be completely fulfilled. And it's never ever happened to me so I am in abject despair."
-Pippin



Ugh, multiple image is dumb.

Quote of the Day: April 14th, 2005

"Immobilized by the thought of you,
Paralyzed by the sight of you,
Hypnotized by the words you say,
Not true but I believe them anyway."

-Maroon 5


(I haven't listened to that CD since September, or so.)

Quote of the Day: April 13th, 2005

What would I give
To live where you are?
What would I pay
To stay here beside you?
What would I do to see you
Smiling at me?

-The Little Mermaid

Quote of the Day: April 12th, 2005

"This is incredible.
Starving,
Insatiable,
Yes, this is love for the first time."

-Dashboard Confessional


I listened to this song a lot yesterday. I liked it, I related.

Fading Away

Something about today has make me feel just really shitty. Like, REALLY shitty. I'm pretty much pissed off at just about everyone right now.

All of my friends don't listen. They don't seem to care, they care enough to ask what's up, or what's wrong, then say "oh," when I tell them everything is up.

I feel like everything I do for this show is wrong. I know I'm being irrational, but I am so afraid I am going to fuck it up so badly.

I've been overreacting to the smallest things; I flipped out when someone kicked the door at rehearsal today, and I was really mean to Lauren a lot of times today for really minor reasons.

I don't know where things stand with Fred. That whole thing is so confusing to me, and if you read this, Fred, help me understand where we fit, and what's real and not in all this.

I am incredibly stressed about college. By the end of the month I have to make a decision that will change the outcome of my life, and I have no idea what to do.

I'm just fading away...

Quote of the Day: April 11th, 2005

may i stay said he
(which way said she
like this said he
if you kiss said she

-EE Cummings



(So, we have less snow than we've had in the past, it's no longer snowing, and it really isn't that crappy outside. Yet today is a snow day, the first one in probably about 2 years.)

Quote of the Day: April 10th, 2005

"I love you with so much of my heart that none is left to protest."

-Shakespeare


If I could play any role ever, it would be Beatrice in Much Ado about Nothing.

Ana, Travis, and Michael

From when I was making the poster for TBC

Quote of the Day: April 9th, 2005

"Someday I will find the secret

Of your social chemistry

And I will print it on a t-shirt,

And it’ll make you want to be with me..."

-Barenaked Ladies

Cooper Cool

If you want advice, talk to Cooper. That is, if you want awesomely heartfelt sincere advice. If you want a comforting word, or like, a quick condolence or a "hmm, that's a tough one" don't talk to Cooper. When you talk to him, you'll get all sorts of information. He'll tell you stories about masturbation, and all sorts of interesting goodness like that. So yeah. I pretty much love Cooper right now. He's probably right about everything that he said, though. And he was so fucking sincere when he said it. It was so sweet.

Quote of the Day: April 8th, 2005

"Nothin' in my life ever came with a guarantee."

-Fastball

(Wouldn't it be comforting if it did?)

Quote of the Day: April 6th, 2005

My dearest friend, if you don’t mind,
I’d like to join you by your side,
And we can gaze into the sky,
And sit together,
Now and forever,
For it is plain as anyone can see,
We’re simply meant to be...


-The Nightmare Before Christmas



(sometimes it does seems that way, doesn't it?)

Quote of the Day: April 5th, 2005

"You're clear - as a heavy lead curtain,
Want to drill you - like an ocean"


-Infected, Bad Religion.


Song's about passion.

what must(whispers)be must

I don't tell my friends things. I used to, but now whenever I try, they sigh exaperatedly and say "not again" so I stop telling them things. No one knows it all, because they won't listen to it all, so I have a network. I rotate through, because I need to talk about it. I need someone to interpret my signs and tell me that there is still some goodness left in my life...
Eventually they stop listening though...

Quote of the Day: April 4th, 2005

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say?
Rules must be obeyed...

-ABBA




The Winner Takes it All.

Quote of the Day: April 3rd, 2005

"It's odd how people waiting for you stand out far less clearly than people you are waiting for."

-Jean Giraudoux


I went to The Madwoman of Chaillot yesterday at the Denver Center. It was pretty amazing. There are so many messages in that play. It explores what it is to be a woman, and what it means to be insane, and greedy. The part that touched me most on a personal level was the whole lost love thing. When he finally comes back, it's too late for her. She tells the two young lovers that they must kiss. They've been in love for 3 hours and if they don't kiss right away, then time will pass and they'll realize that it's too late for them too. I love the whole sieze the moment thing, because I am always worried that I'm not. That one day I'll wake up and realize that I'm sitting in my room with grey hair, remembering a love that passed me by.

Quote of the Day: April 2nd, 2005

I still recall every summer night
Like it was yesterday
The time would never end
And my friends were family
Nothing mattered more
Than the loyalty we had
Now I’m a world away from everything we shared...

-Story of the Year

Quote of the Day: April 1st, 2005

"Take all your big plans
And break 'em;
This is bound to be a while..."



-John Mayer

(The song about the sex.)