Fading Away

Something about today has make me feel just really shitty. Like, REALLY shitty. I'm pretty much pissed off at just about everyone right now.

All of my friends don't listen. They don't seem to care, they care enough to ask what's up, or what's wrong, then say "oh," when I tell them everything is up.

I feel like everything I do for this show is wrong. I know I'm being irrational, but I am so afraid I am going to fuck it up so badly.

I've been overreacting to the smallest things; I flipped out when someone kicked the door at rehearsal today, and I was really mean to Lauren a lot of times today for really minor reasons.

I don't know where things stand with Fred. That whole thing is so confusing to me, and if you read this, Fred, help me understand where we fit, and what's real and not in all this.

I am incredibly stressed about college. By the end of the month I have to make a decision that will change the outcome of my life, and I have no idea what to do.

I'm just fading away...