Quote of the Day: June 30th, 2005

"Wildly my mind beats against you, but my soul obeys..."

-Phantom of the Opera

Quote of the Day: June 29th, 2005

Drewsuf865: sorry kira
Drewsuf865: i'll call speilberg about it
Fantasia Amazing: thanks.
Drewsuf865: hes out right now, but i'll leave a message okay?
Fantasia Amazing: ok, thanks
Fantasia Amazing: i appreciate it
Drewsuf865: no prob
Drewsuf865: steve loves answering my calls
Fantasia Amazing: maybe you could get him to have justin give me a call?
Drewsuf865: that was part of the message, duh
Drewsuf865: do you think i'd call steve and not hook you up?

Quote of the Day: June 28th, 2005

"For once there was an unknown land full of strange flowers and subtle perfumes, a land of which it is joy of all joys to dream; a land where all things are perfect, and poisonous..."

-Velvet Goldmine

Quote of the Day: June 27th, 2005

who are you,little i

(five or six years old)
peering from some high

window;at the gold


of november sunset

(and feeling:that if day
has to become night

this is a beautiful way)



-EE Cummings

Oh, you're so cute, in a gnawing desperation kind of way.

Complete Recording

Night time sharpens, heightens each sensation,
Darkness stirs, and wakes imagination,
Silently the senses abandon their defenses...

Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splenour,
Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender,
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light,
And listen to the music of the night.

Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams,
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before,
Close your eyes let your spirit start to soar-
And you'll live as you've never lived before.

Softly, deftly, music shall surround you,
Feel it, hear it closing in around you,
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
In this darkness which you know you cannot fight,
The darkness of the music of the night...

Let your mind start a journey to a strange new world,
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before,
Let your soul take you where you long to be-
Only then can you belong to me.

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication,
Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation.
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in,
To the power of the music that I write-
The power of the music of the night.

You alone can make my song take flight.
Help me make the music of the night...

(Yep, they're definitely way different. I like the other one more.)

Highlights:

Night time sharpens,
Heightens each sensation,
Darkness wakes, and stirs imagination,
Silently the senses abandon their defenses,
Helpless to resist the notes I write,
For I compose the music of the night...

Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendour,
Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender,
Hearing is believing,
Music is decieving-
Hard as lightning, soft as candlelight.
Dare you trust the music of the night?

Close your eyes for your eyes will only tell the truth,
And the truth isn't what you want to see.
In the dark, it is easy to pretend
That the truth is what it ought to be.

Softly, deftly, music shall caress you,
Fear it, feel it secretly posess you.
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
In this darkness which you know you cannot fight-
The darkness of the music of the night.

Close your eyes, start a journey to a strange new world,
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew you before.
Close your eyes and let music set you free-
Only then can you belong to me.

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication,
Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation.
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in
To the power of the music that I write-
The power of the music of the night.

You alone can make my song take flight.
Help me make the music of the night...

-Phantom of the Opera (Music of the Night)

I'm convinced that the Phantom Highlights CD has different lyrics than the full CD, so I'm transcribing them both, to compare.

Quote of the Day: June 26th, 2005

"Hi I'm Kira and Drew and I'm a complete loser."

-Anonymous

Very Important Question:

Can't Elliott be a girl's name too?

The Hole

I fell in the hole today. Yeah, it takes some skill to fall into holes. But I guess I am just that cool. My leg got all scraped up, it still hurts, but it wasn't a major problem. I'm still in awe that I actually managed to fall into the hole.

Quote of the Day: June 25th, 2005

"She smiled, thinking that she was satisfied to let this be the shape of her world."

-Ayn Rand


Sometimes things are just good.

Last of the red-hot swamis

Damn cool.

Oh man, way old.

Aqua: Jake
Lime: Wild
Red: Dave
Yellow: Katie
Blue: Michael
Magenta: Me
Coral: Shaina
Purple: Rachie
Marigold: Kayla

Didn't quite work like I wanted it to.

Cute.

Methinks...

It's kind of nice to be back in the Shakespeare world, even better to be back in the theatre world. There's something comforting about men sitting in front of mirrors and applying makeup better than I ever could, or sitting on each other on the floor and hitting their chest to "drop their voice." I love the costumes, the warm-ups, the standing on stage wearing normal clothes, ponchos, and little hair nets where the wigs would be if it weren't raining.

I'm glad to be back in that world, hearing the words, the costumes, the sets, the tech crew. Knowing that things don't change around here; this is just picking up where it all left off last year, only I'm in a different place, following around a 12-year-old kid instead of in the corner painting invisible rust on a tower.

I suppose Colorado Shakespeare is better than no Shakespeare.

Denver

Yeah, that was good fun.

Quote of the Day: June 24th, 2005

"You're right, Jackie, the Fonz could beat up Bruce Lee. "

-That 70's Show

For The Record

"Even I have done some really uncool things. In fact, to make you feel better I have a confession: I played with Mary Kate and Ashley dolls."

-Anonymous

haHA!

Quote of the Day: June 23rd, 2005

"Why do we play with fire?

Why do we run our finger through the flame?

Why do we leave our hand on the stove-

Although we know we're in for some pain?"

-Tick, Tick...BOOM!

Can't just let it go, can we?

Quote of the Day: June 22nd, 2005

"For real?... Aw, shit."

-The guy at the far end of the roller coaster after being informed that yes, in fact, a cup of water was on the roller coaster. Was being the important word, since after about 4 seconds the water was no longer in the cup and instead was all over the people sitting behind the fool who had this cup. Yeah, right on.

Quote of the Day: June 21th, 2005

"Stop waving that thing at me or I'm gonna wipe my poo head on you...I have a poo head. *sad face*"

-Anonymous (Kira)

Quote of the Day: June 20th, 2005

"If that's the way you feel about it, then maybe this conversation is over."

-Anonymous
(Fred)

Quote of the Day: June 19th, 2005

"I have been a fool for lesser things."

-Billy Joel

Woooah for the longest tiiiime.

Quote of the Day: June 18th, 2005

"He liked this book. It had made the routine of his Sunday morning breakfast a profound spiritual experience; he was certain that it was profound, because he didn't understand it."

-Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

I really do try not to think like Peter Keating. Sometimes I do though.

The iron did that in the carpet. It's actually pretty cool. I like it, but it is sort of tacky.

Quote of the Day: June 16th, 2005

I feel like quoting The Breakfast Club, is that alright with you? I just have Allison in my head right now. I feel like saying her.


"You want to, but you can't , and when you do, you wish you didn't.... Or are you a tease?"

"Forget it, there is no deal, Sporto, leave me alone."


There's my Allison. Possibly misquoted, it's how I remember it from 8 or so months ago.

I just saw a kid, probably 6 or so years old, wearing a beret and a Clash T-shirt. It was awesome.

I wish I weren't such a loser.

I think the carpet in my house is made of plastic. Otherwise it wouldn't melt the way it does.

Also, who is the main character on FRIENDS? And how (with the live audience) do they film scenes with Ursula?

Photo Du Jour- 6/15- The Arsenal

My brother's squirt gun collection. This is actually only about half of it. I just think it's funny that the boy has 6 that match. They do work well, though, so it's okay.

J'adore le soliel.

J'aime bronzer.

J'aime Evita, aussi.

Il faut que je travailler aujourd'hui. Je dois(t?) (paint) un cuisiniere. Et un chambre. Mais pas le salon, je le fait hier.

Desole pour le mauvais francais. Et le (lack of) accents. Je suis trop parasseux.

Quote of the Day: June 14th, 2005

Waldo: We just moved into town. My father bought the oil refinery.
Darla: That explains why you're so refined!
Alfalfa: Yeah, and so oily!


-The Little Rascals

le concert dans le parc

Mes parents sont dans le parc pour un concert et je peux ententre (ecouter?) la musique (echoing off) les montagnes.

J'aime francais.

Le Francais

Il faut que je (post) en français maintenant.

Il y avais beaucoup de temps depuis (??) j'ai etudié le français, et je ne souviens beaucoup. Desolé.

Mais oui, ça c'est tres amusant.

Quote of the Day: June 13th, 2005

I'm majorly in love with Evita.

I would be listening to it right now, but my dad put on Janis and then walked out of the door. Don't put music on if you're not gonna listen to it, right? No, I like Janis. It's better than most of the other stuff my dad would have put on.

My father is such a musical elitist.

Aren't we all?

Evita Quote of the Day:

"I'm not talking of a hurried night,
A frantic tumble then a shy goodbye,
Creeping home before it gets too light.
That's not the reason that I caught your eye,
Which has to imply, I'd be good for you,
I'd be surprisingly good for you."

(My new favorite song- currently I even like it more than High Flying, Adored.)

Ebony Raven Wings

"My life is black, like a black hole of suck."
"On a scale of 1-10, my soul is a 7."

Oh, we have so many emo fun times. I don't know what just reminded me of them.

Anyway, I feel like right now I'm the only person who exists, and the only people that I want to exist with me are unreachable at the moment, so I suppose I'll be alone in the world for tonight.

I'm used to it.

I watched, at Jordan's recommendation, the trailer for RENT. I agree with him that it's awesome, even if it's different from the play, because it gives us who haven't seen the play (one group I don't want to belong to) a slight glimpse at the genius that is Jonathan Larson that is a better glimpse than listening avidly to the cd and even buying the book (oh man, it's such an awesome book) Anyway, I'm looking forward to November 11th, or the real release date if I'm remembering wrong.

Why do I hold back so much? It doesn't serve me well.

Anyway, if you exist, let me know. Show me. And hi, to you, who exist in the world.

Quote of the Day: June 12th, 2005

"You shouldn't tremble when we touch, let me show you what to do and how,
Cause We'll never be as young as we are right now."

-Whistle Down The Wind

This song is one of the few that I've discovered that I like from this show. I rented the CD from the library today. And the Evita soundtrack (not the one with Antonio, though) and also the Buffy soundtrack. I'm so cool.

Quote of the Day: June 11th, 2005

"There's always a dark movie theatre, and two people lost in the world, their hands clasped together- but hands do perspire when held too long, don't they? Still, it’s beautiful to be in love. The sweetest story ever told- and the tritest."

-Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead


I love that I actually have been having the time to read.
And I love this book. Most books I won't read more than once.

Rain

It's been raining for like, 15 hours straight. Yes, this is Colorado, and I'm excited about this rain.

My pointless post of the day:

The Dush

Quote of the Day: June 9th, 2005

Cauterize is going emo. I'm so excited. Ha, take that Sydney, and check out your man's new hair of sex. Also check out Slater's hair of borderline emo-tude. Ha, and the new guy.

Their new cd is called "Paper Wings"

Actually, they're not looking so hot. They need glasses. I actually like the songs I've heard off the new cd though.

"And I've been thinking about leaving since the day that we met
Since I don't get close when it's all over I'll just forget'
Cause I have seen the end so many times I've played it in my mind
And I am scared to death I never want to see your dark side"

-Cauterize

Quote of the Day: June 8th, 2005

"What if we could live inside a box?
First thoughts might be 'that's pretty cramped,'
But hey, you get used to it, (I hope)
We would laugh andhave a whole bunch of fun,
At least as much fun as can be had living in a box,
But hey, did I mention the best part?
There's music."

-Let's Live in a Music Box by Darcy was a Racehorse

Quote of the Day: June 7th, 2005

"Ron's mom sent him a nice package of presents.

She sent me a nice big sweater.

I got a mysterious gift from my dead dad.

It was an invisibility cloak, how rad.

Oh, oh, ohohoh we'll spend our Christmas being invisible.

Oh, oh, ohohoh we'll be invisible this Christmas."

-Harry and the Potters (How Rad)

This is a band, I guess. Wow.

Monday Afternoon

Sometimes my own cynicism makes me mad. I bet there are times when I've self-fullfilling prophesied myself into a bad spot, just because I thought I would.

Anyway, I wish I could be more open, take people seriously, at face value. Instead I pin (my own) false motives on them and think that they're selfish (like me.)

Damn, I'm sorry.

I miss graduating. That was fun.

I drank tea today, at the Dush. Yeah, it's cooler if you call the Dushanbe Tea House the Dush. I went with Macx and Jake and one of Macx's friends Ian. He was a cool kid, but I can see myself getting aggravated at him if I ever were to spend more time than I did at lunch with him. I suppose that's how most underclassmen are. We ran into John, I had trouble recognizing him from far away. That kid has an amazing sense of style; I love it.

Anyway, I picked up my diploma and signed understage, so it wasn't just tea that drove me to return to school.

I also worked today, for my mom. My dad is feeling too crappy to show me how things are going to work down at the apartments, so I can't start painting until a day when he feels better. But my mom's project is more than enough to keep me busy. I also worked on emailing myself more photos to put on the theatre cd (better late than never) so if you want one, let me know and I'll get you one when they're finished. Looking through the year again is fun. I love photographs. Remember how different life was during The Breakfast Club? When did we grow up so much between now and then? I certainly don't remember. But things have changed.

I've been watching Family Guy from Netflix a lot today. That's a pretty good show. I saw it when I went to babysit Nathan and Joe once, and I enjoyed it. It's a good show to space out to. When I'm done with that I also have Buffy, which I actually haven't watched for a while.

This is how summer goes, I guess. I talk about mundane boring stuff. Oh well. It's only just begun.

I should go to the bank.

And if you read this, you really should comment. I like to know.

Quote of the Day: June 5th, 2005

Masochism Tango

I ache for the touch of your lips, dear,

But much more for the touch of your whips, dear.

You can raise welts like nobody else,

As we dance to the Masochism Tango.

Let our love be a flame, not an ember,

Say it's me that you want to dismember.

Blacken my eye, set fire to my tie,

As we dance to the Masochism Tango.

At your command before you here I stand,

My heart is in my hand ....Eech! ...

It's here that I must be.

My heart entreats, just hear those savage beats,

And go put on your cleats and come and trample me.

Your heart is hard as stone or mahogany,

That's why I'm in such exquisite agony.

My soul is on fire, it's aflame with desire,

Which is why I perspire when we tango.

You caught my nose in your left castanet, love,

I can feel the pain yet, love,

Ev'ry time I hear drums.

And I envy the rose that you held in your teeth, love,

With the thorns underneath, love, sticking into your gums.

Your eyes cast a spell that bewitches.

The last time I needed twenty stitches

To sew up the gash that you made with your lash,

As we danced to the Masochism Tango.

Bash in my brain, and make me scream with pain,

Then kick me once again, and say we'll never part.

I know too well I'm underneath your spell,so,

Darling, if you smell something burning, it's my heart...Excuse me!

Take your cigarette from its holder,

And burn your initials in my shoulder.

Fracture my spine, and swear that you're mine,

As we dance to the Masochism Tango.

-Tom Lehrer

Oh man, the BEST song.

We were the first BHS class in something like 33 years that had to move their graduation ceremony inside. Crazy, huh?

Saturday

So graduation was rainy. So it was postponed two times, from 9 to one to now 7:30, inside. I'm glad, inside, actually, today. It's wet and rainy and sad. My one brief venture out didn't go so well. So oh well. Soon I'm off to Lauren's party, then back home, then going to graduate. Man, these silly formalities are so bizarre.

I suppose it sucks that I had to reschedule my party for tomorrow. John Yates called, to ask about it. Cool kid, that one is.

Ugh, parties and ceremonies and rain and waiting, all in all today hasn't been the epitome of perfection. Oh well.

Too Cute

Oh man, we are so cute, Colin and I.

My Sexy Silver Rope

They gave me a silver rope to wear around my neck tomorrow, meaning I have a cumulative GPA of 3.something good. I don't really know what, though, and I certainly didn't know my GPA was it. It's sexy, my silver rope. I bet it has a more technical name... hmmm...

Quote of the Day: June 3rd, 2005

"You'll look like a waffle."

-Bud Jenkins, on what will happen if we fail to hang up our graduation robes tonight to let the wrinkles settle out.

I think that anyone who says anything with the word "waffle" is just destined to sound funny. And Bud is destined to be a goofy guy no matter what.

Today was fun, graduation practice. We stand aphabetically, which is nice, since we do it so often that I have bonds with a lot of the people who are alphabetically close to me. Like Brooke, it seems like we've been next to eachother a lot lately.

After, we picked up the robes, which is always confusing, but not too bad. Then the barbeque, where people kept loading lots and lots of food that I really didn't feel like eating onto my plate. But we got lots of photos, that was nice. End of year photos, man. And yearbooks. I am so yearbooked out.

Awards Ceremony

Yeah, nothing's ever as good. I mean, it's good, as good as I could hope for, yet somehow, either in my own "I need to be humble" or something, possibly even "I know I deserve more than I'll ever get" kind of way, it just never excites me.

Tonight I recieved a $500 scholarship for excellence in technical theatre. Morgan got the same scholarship as me, for excellence in performing. I have so much respect for Morgan this year that recieving matching awards with him is an honor. Man, I sound like one of those people who stood at the front of the stage tonight just quoting meaningless bullshit from their little notebooks, but I've learned that the things you think to be meaningless usually aren't, and usually when people praise you in specific ways, they got that praise from somewhere.

Anyway, that was about 2 hours of major boredom. But I'm glad of it.

Dumb.

"Because it feels good" is not a good answer. No, not good. While I will not condemn you completely for this, I will integrate it into my concept of your character, and it will lower it. I often though you were smarter, cooler, above that, but I suppose impressions are misleading and if you just like to "feel good," that's your priority at all costs.

So yeah. Way to lose some respect in my book. And I don't really care that you like it.

I hate anticipated surprises. Like, "I know something is going to happen, but I don't know what." I'm always let down, because nothing is ever as cool as it was in my mind.

So yeah, awards ceremony tonight, I don't know what I'm getting, probably not anything as cool as I would like to be getting, probably just getting recognized for being an honor thespian. Which really won't be that cool. I'm setting my hopes low. Not that I'm ingrateful or anything, I just don't really like surprises.

Rushing Past

We've already completed 5 months of this year. Do you remember when time seemed to pass so slowly?


I have two real classes left of high school.