I hate anticipated surprises. Like, "I know something is going to happen, but I don't know what." I'm always let down, because nothing is ever as cool as it was in my mind.

So yeah, awards ceremony tonight, I don't know what I'm getting, probably not anything as cool as I would like to be getting, probably just getting recognized for being an honor thespian. Which really won't be that cool. I'm setting my hopes low. Not that I'm ingrateful or anything, I just don't really like surprises.