"they don't even care that much, anything you want to believe fades when she's around, hopelessly desperate actress with big plans and no one to execute them, all alone in a room with nothing on your mind. and it feels so good to sit here comfortably in the world where everything is how i imagine it, and my perceptions are as concrete as the brick you threw at my head which really isn't a brick at all. and oh fuck how could would you ever?"

10-22-04