thinking of getting the surgery i was planning on getting several years ago, and i'm terrified. i spent a while today looking up info that will help me decide and although the very thought of what they do seriously nauseates me and makes me cringe like no other i feel that i would be so much happier if it happened.

hottie mchotterson du jour came over today, but i was too stressed about the surgery to really care at all and i only stuck around to observe the dynamics which is turning into an exercise in futility and self-torture, bummer. they all get together and seem to think it's this cool awesome big deal to pseudo-recite useless popculture knowledge and just go on and on making different connections forever which i can't do, so i'm out. trivia is not my thing. but now he knows about the surgery because i mentioned that i was researching it to hannah. who knows if that's something he should know or not, i guess that doesn't matter.

i need to sleep before anything else sucks.

Sam

Sam and I did senior photos yesterday.