My surgery is in 3 days.

Cold Kisses

"Here I am behind enemy lines
Looking for secrets, looking for signs
Old boyfriends big and small
Got to see how I measure up to them all
This one's handsome, not too bright
This one's clever with his hands alright
Tougher than me if it came to a fight
And this one's a poet, a bit of a wet
Bit of a gypsy, a bit of a threat
I wonder if she's got over him yet

Old passions frozen in the second
Who were you holding in that fond embrace
Hearts have a past that must be reckoned
And do you still feel the warmth of cold kisses?"

-Richard Thompson

Right?

It's not a good sign when you have dreams where your boyfriends friends are trying (successfully) to seduce you.

Right?

Torn

You ever feel like something is just so good that all you want to do is mess it up?

At least that way, you'll be able to pinpoint exactly where it went wrong.


And you ever feel like no matter what you do or how hard you try, you'll never ever live up to the standards of the last girl, and then you see a picture of her that just flat-out confirms it, she's gorgeous and skinny and sexy and confident, and what on earth could make him like you when he's already liked someone like her?

You ever feel like timing is just so wrong, that fate is just working against you in every possible way, and one night you just want to tear apart the world you've made for yourself for the past two months.


Bah.